My sweetheart!!

Heya folks...

This post has nothing to do with my love life at all.And I am seriously happy about this fact cause anytime i think of posting something my brain kind of moves only around my love life.So you can guess how much influential my guy is.

Ok...This post is dedicated to my childhood friend..RAJ.Sorry Raj I am late in writing this post but this post had to be very special.

My life started in a small colony of OIL INDIA LTD.Where I lived with my parents and my sister.

He was a year younger to me,very fair and with hair like a hedgehog.Hehe..he was my childhood friend "RAJ".I was studying in an all girls school so other than Raj there wasnt a single guy who was allowed to be my friend.He was allowed cause he was my next door neighbor.

Believe me or not I know Assamese better than my mother tongue.This was because we always used to be together and we always spoke in assamese.We always used to fight over the matter of who was elder among us.It seems funny when I recall all the funny and stupid things we did together.I remember during our school days we used to try to whistle everyday.And today he knows to whistle but I still keep trying.May be one day I will succeed and will be able to say him-"See Raj even I can whistle".Hehe...

We were almost together till class 5 when his father got transfered to Jorhat.He had to leave to jorhat.I missed him a lot.I became too lonely after he left.And gradually i lost all contacts with him.I never thought about him anymore.Got busy with my life..studies and all other stuff.

Even he forgot the fact that I existed.

Though he was a year younger to me we were in the same standard.So as days passed I reached my 10th standard and gave my boards.During these 5years after he left i dint speak to any guy.Dint have a single friend who was a guy.My life was only books and my parents and nothing else.Yeah now as i go back and look into it i feel it was really boring.But at that time i never felt it that way maybe because I never knew what life was exactly.

And as i was waiting for my boards results his dad got transfered again to guwahati.I dint know this until they came back to guwahati.They took a quarter in my lane only.So one day me along with my mom went to see them.I couldn't believe my eyes...the guy who was even shorter than me has grown over 6feet.I was shocked.We hardly spoke that day.I was scared to talk to him.Well its a typical feeling a girl from an all girls school feels i guess.

And as I was waiting for my results he was waiting too.His results were out before mine.And he scored 90%.Again a shock as my percentage barely reached 85%.And then we both started getting close again.We both decided to take science and went to the same school for our HS.We even used to go to the private tuitions together.If he dint feel like going I too bunked that day.life was fun with him.Enjoyed every second with him.After our HS we again had to part our ways...

Now he is in Nagpur doing his B.E.I miss him a lot.

There are hardly such childhood relationships which don't turn into a love affair.But we are the best of friends and will always remain so.

I MISS YOU RAJ and I LOVE YOU a lot......

Love you till the end...

YOU

Its 2.49am now and just a few minutes ago I was not able to breathe.My heart stopped beating and the thought of losing YOU made me realise the real feeling of death........

If you leave me,I would still walk but.........without blinking my eyes......
If you leave me,I would still eat but............only your thoughts hungrily.....
If you leave me,I would still sleep but........ just like a dead man.....
If you leave me,I would still breathe...........just to live with your memories....
If you leave me,I would still sing but...........my ears would'nt hear....
If you leave me,I would still cry but.............without tears rolling out......
If you leave me,my heart would still beat....only with the hope
that you would return one day to say...
"""Baby you are the only one for me"""!!!
And if you leave me forever,my body would rest in an assylum and my soul would depart in search of you in its own world...never letting your thoughts go....


P.S::This is not a poetry or a story but just a piece that i penned down from my heart.......

Deaf n Dumb!!

Kolkata....The city of joy.....There is something really peculiar about this city which makes it contradistinct from all the other cities.This July I was in kolkata with my family-my mom,dad and sis.My family is not too much into going to restaurants and all.My dad prefers to have home made fresh cooked items rather than eating in hotels.Wel it is a mentality which i couldnt remove from my dads mind even after 22years...wel wel wel "I have seen the world more then you,my child" beyond which you cannot really say anything.

But this year I somehow managed to take my family to the KFC at newmarket.I thought of going for shopping so managed to convince dad to take all of us to newmarket.Kolkata's newmarket really has got a great collection of clothes and ornaments.By the time we ended up with our shopping it was almost 9.30pm.Mom was like "I cannot prepare anything at home now",and there it was,I grabbed this opportunity and took my family to KFC.

I ordered 4 Zingkong boxes,piad the bill and started eating like i have been starving for years...For me and my guy KFC always clicks.But with my family i was the only one eating like a tiger.My sis coudnt eat one burger and two pieces of chicken.It was too much for her so I called one of the waiters and asked him to pack the rest of her items.The waiter returned with a packet and was putting the rest of the chicken pieces inside when my dad started asking him questions like,'where are you from?'.He replied something which none of us could understand.We stared at each other confused.My sis told maybe he was speaking latin and i told,"no,I think its french".Again dad asked him "What is your name?".This time he went away without replying.It was turning out to be queer.After a minute he brought with him the manager.

What the manager told us left an impression that would remain in my memories forever.He told us that he was deaf and dumb and all the rest of the waiters were the same too.

It was just amazing to see all so young guys working with such vigour and discipline.That is why i really salute kolkata.The most happening place in this World for me.Anything is possible for this city.

The CITY OF JOY....indeed it is...Will you ever find anything so wonderful anywhere else???

I was totally touched with the view.A memory to remember forever!!

Without You

Wandering in the streets;
In search of you;
Thoughts of fear overpowering
Hundreds of memories;
Overflowing with tears my eyes;
Unable to bear the pain;
Trembling and shivering all the way;

Young are the thoughts still
Orbiting around me;
Undying will be my LOVE for you.

At Last....the IV

Hi friends....its been long I have written anything at all.Truly speaking was a bit busy with my boring life.

Anyways back to the topic...am I sounding pathetic???well ummm...I came to chennai in the year 2006.After attending all my engineering entrances i could come to only one conclusion...I need atleast two more generations to get them cleared.But my parents always wanted their daughter to be an engineer and so I am now in pondicherry in the worst college available on this earth!!!The name is Dr.Pauls ENgineering College!!Ever heard of it????never!!!I am in my final year and this is the best part of the story!In these four years, 19th of August 2009 gave us the best day of our engineering life!!Yes we had an IV(industrial Visit).Its funny because the other colleges go for iv's almost every month!!So you can guess what is the status of my college!!!

Well on 19th me and my rummies woke up early morning!!!Early morning means 3am.Can you imagine??We were going to SPIRO solutions in chennai!!We all got ready by 5am and left for our bus stand!!Our bus was waiting in the bus stop.In Tamil Nadu the rule is that boys and girls should not talk or have any sort of conversation.Can you believe it???Yes, you have to believe it..no other go!!But this IV all the rules.Boys and girls were going in the same bus!!Queer!!We boarded the bus and we left pondy by almost 6am.Boys will be boys...they started dancing from 6am.Man!!!We girls are decent and we maintained it till the guys pulled me in2 the dancing floor.And me and my friend Nafi started dancing with all the guys!!We being the center of attraction!!Cameras flashed from all the directions!!I felt like the princess of the bus.Suddenly the bus came to a stop.We reached Mahabalipuram!!we were given an hour to get back to the bus!!it was 9.30am and the sun was shinning as if it would burn everything!!We had one hour in our hands.All the girls and guys were rocking except me and nafi!!We both have been to this place atleast 4times.So were just sitting under a tree.
At around 11am we started for chennai again.On the way the guys requested our teachers to take us to Kovalam Beach!Errr...m fed up of beaches.And this time i dint even get down from the bus.We reached Tnagar by 12.30pm.We had one more hour to have lunch coz our IV was scheduled from 2pm to 4pm.
And this was the opportunity that my friend grabbed.She called her swain and believe me or not he was there within 15mins!!What a love!!!Pyar ho to aisa!!We had lunch and then made our way to SPIRO solutions!!There we were divided into two groups.And had a small lecture on Embedded System and VLSI.It was over within two hours and we were back to the bus to head back to pondy!!
As I said my college is pathetic and so are my teachers.They decided to drop at Mahabalipuram again.My life sucks with these people.But this time I was down in the water.Had fun with all the girls in the water.Finally it was time to head back.
We were back in the bus!and this time we even dragged out teachers on the dance floor!We danced till we were exhausted.Finally we reached pondy at 9.30pm!!
This was the only day that I enjoyed in the four years of my engineering life.Now as I am back to the normal boring college life all my classmates keep asking our management almost everyday for another IV.And we know that this is the end of our IV's forever.The first and the last!!

UNENDING DESIRE

Unafraid to let it unfold,
Naturally as it melds,
Enduring love and lust,
Never like before.
Delicately handling the feeling,
Inevitable as its power is,
Never will i let go,
Going crazy over you.


Drenched as I am in your love,
Ever will this desire end??
Seeking for you till the end,
Inviting every danger,paralysing the mind,
Renovating this broken heart,
Everlasting it will be.

P.S This is my first poem ever.Hope i dint dissapoint you all.

A tribute to "My Pishi"

One day as I was sitting in the balcony of my house in pondy,I heard my Mom react over the Phone.She was talking to my dad over the phone.After she disconnected the phone she told me," Your Pishi(dad's sis) has cancer".

I could not react.It was more then a shock to me.She was even younger to my dad.How could she have such a dreadful thing??

At that time I was just worried about two things...whether ny pishi would be able to come out of this disease and the other was that my dad was alone at home with my sister.My sister was too small to give my dad emotional support which he needed at that time and which only my mom could provide.I asked mom to go back home but my dad would not let her return as i was suffering from chicken pox.

Something I have to admit when you start having many problems at a time life becomes too hard to face.

But my dad is strong I knew.I wished I could take away that monster away from my pishi but you can never do anything about such a thing except just accept the truth.And cancer is such a disease which wont let you die till it has killed every organ of your body.

The worst part of the story was that she has two small children who needs her the most.I dont understand why God always takes away the ones who have a very important job to fulfill in this earth and leave the useless ones like me in this earth to rot.

She was also promoted to a matron from a nurse.She served so many people in this earth and so many people were still waiting to be served.

My Mom told me that when i was a little one my pishi used to buy me so many things and she loved me a lot.I still have the huge teady that she gave me when i was in class 1.

And now after fighting for her life for almost one year she passed away on 1st july,at 7pm,2009 leaving all of us alone.

Tears would be less to define the pain you left in us.

I LOVE YOU PISHI.

THE ENTIRE WORLD LOVES YOU.

I WILL MISS YOU A LOT PISHI.

MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACE.