My sweetheart!!

Heya folks...

This post has nothing to do with my love life at all.And I am seriously happy about this fact cause anytime i think of posting something my brain kind of moves only around my love life.So you can guess how much influential my guy is.

Ok...This post is dedicated to my childhood friend..RAJ.Sorry Raj I am late in writing this post but this post had to be very special.

My life started in a small colony of OIL INDIA LTD.Where I lived with my parents and my sister.

He was a year younger to me,very fair and with hair like a hedgehog.Hehe..he was my childhood friend "RAJ".I was studying in an all girls school so other than Raj there wasnt a single guy who was allowed to be my friend.He was allowed cause he was my next door neighbor.

Believe me or not I know Assamese better than my mother tongue.This was because we always used to be together and we always spoke in assamese.We always used to fight over the matter of who was elder among us.It seems funny when I recall all the funny and stupid things we did together.I remember during our school days we used to try to whistle everyday.And today he knows to whistle but I still keep trying.May be one day I will succeed and will be able to say him-"See Raj even I can whistle".Hehe...

We were almost together till class 5 when his father got transfered to Jorhat.He had to leave to jorhat.I missed him a lot.I became too lonely after he left.And gradually i lost all contacts with him.I never thought about him anymore.Got busy with my life..studies and all other stuff.

Even he forgot the fact that I existed.

Though he was a year younger to me we were in the same standard.So as days passed I reached my 10th standard and gave my boards.During these 5years after he left i dint speak to any guy.Dint have a single friend who was a guy.My life was only books and my parents and nothing else.Yeah now as i go back and look into it i feel it was really boring.But at that time i never felt it that way maybe because I never knew what life was exactly.

And as i was waiting for my boards results his dad got transfered again to guwahati.I dint know this until they came back to guwahati.They took a quarter in my lane only.So one day me along with my mom went to see them.I couldn't believe my eyes...the guy who was even shorter than me has grown over 6feet.I was shocked.We hardly spoke that day.I was scared to talk to him.Well its a typical feeling a girl from an all girls school feels i guess.

And as I was waiting for my results he was waiting too.His results were out before mine.And he scored 90%.Again a shock as my percentage barely reached 85%.And then we both started getting close again.We both decided to take science and went to the same school for our HS.We even used to go to the private tuitions together.If he dint feel like going I too bunked that day.life was fun with him.Enjoyed every second with him.After our HS we again had to part our ways...

Now he is in Nagpur doing his B.E.I miss him a lot.

There are hardly such childhood relationships which don't turn into a love affair.But we are the best of friends and will always remain so.

I MISS YOU RAJ and I LOVE YOU a lot......

Love you till the end...

YOU

Its 2.49am now and just a few minutes ago I was not able to breathe.My heart stopped beating and the thought of losing YOU made me realise the real feeling of death........

If you leave me,I would still walk but.........without blinking my eyes......
If you leave me,I would still eat but............only your thoughts hungrily.....
If you leave me,I would still sleep but........ just like a dead man.....
If you leave me,I would still breathe...........just to live with your memories....
If you leave me,I would still sing but...........my ears would'nt hear....
If you leave me,I would still cry but.............without tears rolling out......
If you leave me,my heart would still beat....only with the hope
that you would return one day to say...
"""Baby you are the only one for me"""!!!
And if you leave me forever,my body would rest in an assylum and my soul would depart in search of you in its own world...never letting your thoughts go....


P.S::This is not a poetry or a story but just a piece that i penned down from my heart.......

Deaf n Dumb!!

Kolkata....The city of joy.....There is something really peculiar about this city which makes it contradistinct from all the other cities.This July I was in kolkata with my family-my mom,dad and sis.My family is not too much into going to restaurants and all.My dad prefers to have home made fresh cooked items rather than eating in hotels.Wel it is a mentality which i couldnt remove from my dads mind even after 22years...wel wel wel "I have seen the world more then you,my child" beyond which you cannot really say anything.

But this year I somehow managed to take my family to the KFC at newmarket.I thought of going for shopping so managed to convince dad to take all of us to newmarket.Kolkata's newmarket really has got a great collection of clothes and ornaments.By the time we ended up with our shopping it was almost 9.30pm.Mom was like "I cannot prepare anything at home now",and there it was,I grabbed this opportunity and took my family to KFC.

I ordered 4 Zingkong boxes,piad the bill and started eating like i have been starving for years...For me and my guy KFC always clicks.But with my family i was the only one eating like a tiger.My sis coudnt eat one burger and two pieces of chicken.It was too much for her so I called one of the waiters and asked him to pack the rest of her items.The waiter returned with a packet and was putting the rest of the chicken pieces inside when my dad started asking him questions like,'where are you from?'.He replied something which none of us could understand.We stared at each other confused.My sis told maybe he was speaking latin and i told,"no,I think its french".Again dad asked him "What is your name?".This time he went away without replying.It was turning out to be queer.After a minute he brought with him the manager.

What the manager told us left an impression that would remain in my memories forever.He told us that he was deaf and dumb and all the rest of the waiters were the same too.

It was just amazing to see all so young guys working with such vigour and discipline.That is why i really salute kolkata.The most happening place in this World for me.Anything is possible for this city.

The CITY OF JOY....indeed it is...Will you ever find anything so wonderful anywhere else???

I was totally touched with the view.A memory to remember forever!!

Without You

Wandering in the streets;
In search of you;
Thoughts of fear overpowering
Hundreds of memories;
Overflowing with tears my eyes;
Unable to bear the pain;
Trembling and shivering all the way;

Young are the thoughts still
Orbiting around me;
Undying will be my LOVE for you.

At Last....the IV

Hi friends....its been long I have written anything at all.Truly speaking was a bit busy with my boring life.

Anyways back to the topic...am I sounding pathetic???well ummm...I came to chennai in the year 2006.After attending all my engineering entrances i could come to only one conclusion...I need atleast two more generations to get them cleared.But my parents always wanted their daughter to be an engineer and so I am now in pondicherry in the worst college available on this earth!!!The name is Dr.Pauls ENgineering College!!Ever heard of it????never!!!I am in my final year and this is the best part of the story!In these four years, 19th of August 2009 gave us the best day of our engineering life!!Yes we had an IV(industrial Visit).Its funny because the other colleges go for iv's almost every month!!So you can guess what is the status of my college!!!

Well on 19th me and my rummies woke up early morning!!!Early morning means 3am.Can you imagine??We were going to SPIRO solutions in chennai!!We all got ready by 5am and left for our bus stand!!Our bus was waiting in the bus stop.In Tamil Nadu the rule is that boys and girls should not talk or have any sort of conversation.Can you believe it???Yes, you have to believe it..no other go!!But this IV all the rules.Boys and girls were going in the same bus!!Queer!!We boarded the bus and we left pondy by almost 6am.Boys will be boys...they started dancing from 6am.Man!!!We girls are decent and we maintained it till the guys pulled me in2 the dancing floor.And me and my friend Nafi started dancing with all the guys!!We being the center of attraction!!Cameras flashed from all the directions!!I felt like the princess of the bus.Suddenly the bus came to a stop.We reached Mahabalipuram!!we were given an hour to get back to the bus!!it was 9.30am and the sun was shinning as if it would burn everything!!We had one hour in our hands.All the girls and guys were rocking except me and nafi!!We both have been to this place atleast 4times.So were just sitting under a tree.
At around 11am we started for chennai again.On the way the guys requested our teachers to take us to Kovalam Beach!Errr...m fed up of beaches.And this time i dint even get down from the bus.We reached Tnagar by 12.30pm.We had one more hour to have lunch coz our IV was scheduled from 2pm to 4pm.
And this was the opportunity that my friend grabbed.She called her swain and believe me or not he was there within 15mins!!What a love!!!Pyar ho to aisa!!We had lunch and then made our way to SPIRO solutions!!There we were divided into two groups.And had a small lecture on Embedded System and VLSI.It was over within two hours and we were back to the bus to head back to pondy!!
As I said my college is pathetic and so are my teachers.They decided to drop at Mahabalipuram again.My life sucks with these people.But this time I was down in the water.Had fun with all the girls in the water.Finally it was time to head back.
We were back in the bus!and this time we even dragged out teachers on the dance floor!We danced till we were exhausted.Finally we reached pondy at 9.30pm!!
This was the only day that I enjoyed in the four years of my engineering life.Now as I am back to the normal boring college life all my classmates keep asking our management almost everyday for another IV.And we know that this is the end of our IV's forever.The first and the last!!

UNENDING DESIRE

Unafraid to let it unfold,
Naturally as it melds,
Enduring love and lust,
Never like before.
Delicately handling the feeling,
Inevitable as its power is,
Never will i let go,
Going crazy over you.


Drenched as I am in your love,
Ever will this desire end??
Seeking for you till the end,
Inviting every danger,paralysing the mind,
Renovating this broken heart,
Everlasting it will be.

P.S This is my first poem ever.Hope i dint dissapoint you all.

A tribute to "My Pishi"

One day as I was sitting in the balcony of my house in pondy,I heard my Mom react over the Phone.She was talking to my dad over the phone.After she disconnected the phone she told me," Your Pishi(dad's sis) has cancer".

I could not react.It was more then a shock to me.She was even younger to my dad.How could she have such a dreadful thing??

At that time I was just worried about two things...whether ny pishi would be able to come out of this disease and the other was that my dad was alone at home with my sister.My sister was too small to give my dad emotional support which he needed at that time and which only my mom could provide.I asked mom to go back home but my dad would not let her return as i was suffering from chicken pox.

Something I have to admit when you start having many problems at a time life becomes too hard to face.

But my dad is strong I knew.I wished I could take away that monster away from my pishi but you can never do anything about such a thing except just accept the truth.And cancer is such a disease which wont let you die till it has killed every organ of your body.

The worst part of the story was that she has two small children who needs her the most.I dont understand why God always takes away the ones who have a very important job to fulfill in this earth and leave the useless ones like me in this earth to rot.

She was also promoted to a matron from a nurse.She served so many people in this earth and so many people were still waiting to be served.

My Mom told me that when i was a little one my pishi used to buy me so many things and she loved me a lot.I still have the huge teady that she gave me when i was in class 1.

And now after fighting for her life for almost one year she passed away on 1st july,at 7pm,2009 leaving all of us alone.

Tears would be less to define the pain you left in us.

I LOVE YOU PISHI.

THE ENTIRE WORLD LOVES YOU.

I WILL MISS YOU A LOT PISHI.

MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACE.

A Tough Rift!!

The girl said,"Why are you doing this to me??What is my fault???"

The guy still stayed firm with his question,"Choose-me or him".

Her life really started 3years ago...when he entered into her life with a flow quite unknown.He started going deeper and deeper into her life.Everything changed for her right from the day (18th Jan)when she accepted his proposal.

Her life took a ride to a height where she could not see nething else that could be so beautiful and so thrilling.She got blown away by his care and love.

He was so tender...so loving..so caring..so understanding.He gave her all the time he had in his hands and she began getting used to this care and love never knowing what was in store for her in the future!!

Gradually days passed and so did years...

After 3years...everything started changing.Oh my God!!The guy was no more the same one she fell in love with.He still loved her unconditionally but he changed in many ways for the girl.He was no more the patient listener,nomore the guy who would do everything for her.

She realised that she was a fool to kip only one person in her life.And so she started making friends and bringing more people in her life!And one day a new friend came into her life who seemed to be different from the rest.He understood her more then her guy did.He started being with her whenever she needed help or an ear to listen to!!

She used to go out with him sometimes but she never forgot to let her guy know about it.And this way days passed...and one day the unwanted happened...She never wanted it to happen.Never thought that it would ever happen!!

Yes the friend proposed her.He told her that he had never seen a girl like her before!She was in a shock...

She never took him that way.He was such a good friend.She told her guy about it and then this was the line he gave her

"CHOOSE-ME OR HIM".

It made her devastrated.Only one friend so close...and now she had to lose him.Lose a sympathetic ear????Should she???

She asked herself,"Is it fair???"

And the question still lingers without an answer....

My X-boyfriend!!

I was sitting on a couch next to my friend and then the feeling....

He was very near,close in proximity!!He made me breath harder driving me beyond the boundaries of sanity!!!He turned the dark days of my insanity to sanity making me dream about the life after death with him so early.He made the stars revolve around me and the earth spin making me nauseatic!!Life seemed heavenly and fabulously romantic with the aroma of his love around me!!Nothing seemed interesting then this thing called LOVE!!!

Gradually....days passed and i never understood when things started getting so serious with me!!He was the one who made me turn my heads to things i have never done before!!Life started being adventurous mesmerised by the nature of his life!!I started to look at things from evry angle just like the way he did.
I started doing everything that he does.Giving myself into the things that only he liked!!How can I forget the most beautiful night that he gave me???The most romantic dinner any girl could ever have!!Yes, he was my X-BOYFRIEND!!

Suddenly as the feeling passed away i found my friend drained..as if he took every bit of life away from her..it was her X-boyfriend!!

Love is always very different for a girl!!Very hard to explain and very hard for any guy to know the true power of a girl's love!!

my budding days

hi friends!!!now its getting too much!!i have been trying to write something from a few days but i dont know how to get started??but today i am gonna do it whatever be the case!!
my life is just the most boring one if ever nebody could imagine!!My school days in Holy Child were okay shokay!!There are some secret stuffs that I am gonna write later!!I was in a convent where from morning till evening u would always be surrounded by sisters!!And guess what it was an all gals school!!
We had to pray at least 5 times a day!!Can u imagine???Wel the prayers for me were only just to utter some english words.I never prayed seriously!!And forget about the days when i dint have school!!Never ever went near the small temple that my mom maintains!!Dont think that i am a nastik but i am not too much into GODDY GODDY stuff!!!i believe in facing the life as it comes!!
I had to spend 12 years in holy child!!so almost more then a decade!!huh???Am i serious???yes i am!!during school life i only new 3 things-BOOKS,TELEVISION &PARENTS!!and nothing else!!well i even scored good in my hslc!!now forget about the percentage!!
next came my HS!!even with a percentage in 80s you need to run from one school to the other!!i got my admissions in KV!!KV was a total yucks for me!!!i came from convent yaar(samjha karo)!!and eew there were guys!!i dint know how to face the guys!!GOD save me(at times its very very necessary to pray)!!and i was just too shocked when i met 3 of my guy classmates...it was a big question mark????are guys really like this??they were just beyond my imagination!!life has changed a lot since i joined KV.BETER OR FOR WORSE I dont know but i LOVE IT!!
will write the rest later...
hope atleast you dont just turn down my first try!!!