It has been months I have really written something for myself.At this moment of total loneliness I end up writting a blog or maybe trying to just find something to make me happy.Whenever I come here I end up reading posts all about love.People are really crazy about love.Its nice to see people so happy in love.Hail O love!!
My life has turned to a point where technically,literally,physically,mentally nothing is sane.Life is indeed a big torture and once you know you have survived one there you fall into another one.The worst and the best part of my life is the loneliness that I have in profound.Worst part because everyday I come to office and find people surrounded by me with whom you can't have "the Conversation" and by "the conversation" I mean the warm connection that develops once you see a person.And then I return home to find myself again filled with emptiness and silence as I have a two bedroom flat with not a single soul to smile at.And to my added sorrow I am yet to be allocated a project in the office which means I sit all alone infront of a desktop the entire day.So here again comes loneliness.
My life has turned to a point where technically,literally,physically,mentally nothing is sane.Life is indeed a big torture and once you know you have survived one there you fall into another one.The worst and the best part of my life is the loneliness that I have in profound.Worst part because everyday I come to office and find people surrounded by me with whom you can't have "the Conversation" and by "the conversation" I mean the warm connection that develops once you see a person.And then I return home to find myself again filled with emptiness and silence as I have a two bedroom flat with not a single soul to smile at.And to my added sorrow I am yet to be allocated a project in the office which means I sit all alone infront of a desktop the entire day.So here again comes loneliness.
No matter what,I miss the warmth,the happiness,the fun,the care,the love that I once had.I was once happy with my closest buddies.I miss those moments with which I can live my whole life.But lets be practical...these moments are the ones which make me crave for them more.
My love life.....I donno what a Lifepartner is supposed to mean!!Maybe this can be answered only by "the Lifepartner".Even after 5years of a relationship I don't kno the exact definition.For girls the list is basically endless but that is not important.After everything I have gone through I realize that women and men don't go together.Ofcourse you can live together but with a lot of sacrifices.I just want a friend in my lifepartner I hope it is not much to ask for.
So life is literally screwed.But trust me I would fight with every single moment of my life and one day I will be out of this depression.
I don't know how many of you would even read this...just my life's bad phase!!
Hope to get back soon....
Love you all.
straight from the heart!! I know sounds too superficial but it will all smooth out and you will find "the friend" in your partner,trust me.. good times do come again ..but after going through a rough patch sometimes.. and I pray you be happy soon with your life.. :) cheers girl.. there are friends who care for you..even though not close..
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